Memories lure back...

So it was a normal thing for me in the merning today.. to get up early.. do the routine work at home and leave for office..

But today while i was in the train i was talking to a Ameya and we were talking about the terrorist attacks that took place in the city a year back... and how the whole 3-day attack shook the city for sometime.

So while on my way in the train it was just a different feeling all together... I remembered exactly the same time last year there was so much of tension in the air all around me... All my freinds and family members telling me not to go to office... But something in me wanted to do just that... and i went with my instinct...

Though i must agree i was a littly apprehensive at the start but then i was like "If i do what everyone else is doing.. that is sitting at home and watching all the news channels go yap yap... then what difference am i bringing into this small world of mine."

Though i cant deny the fact that a thought did pass my mind.. "..that what if something would happen.. what if there were terrorist still somewhere near the station..." But i believe that was just a mere thought and nothing more..

The scene is still fresh in my mind where in i get down at VT station and i was the only girl walking on the station just about 10 hours after the terrorist had attacked the place... It was probably the only time the station ever looked so deserted and only a few people were there and also who where in their own thoughts...

Ya while i am writing this it does get me a chill down my spine and hope nothing like this happens ever again not only in my city but anywhere in the world..

The city looked so much in peace today.. like the side walk below my office... there were these people sleeping so peacefully without a slightest doubt that something or somebody could attack the city once again...

Probably that BOMBAY for you... people just move on.. continue with their routine work.. it's only when a situation hits you personally that it lasts with us forever... if it's an exterior hurt.. it goes away as time flies by...

So i think i must move on and continue with the daily mundane affairs... probably that how life is...

Taa.

ALL BLANK...

I duuno.. i wanna write so so much ... but i am suddenly all so blank.. and stunned.. dunno what to say...

I am a bag of mixed emotions right now... somewhere happy and sad .. i dunno.. i think i have lost myself somewhere in the past few months... i am getting drained mentally and physically... but to the world i am showing myself all strong and ready to face the world... and ya its all my fault.. no one else's..I am the one who is punishing myself..

I had actaully stopped crying for weeks till last night scared that i would be all alone trying to console myself... but last night i did probably cry for some hours with my eyes all puffy in the morning.. and there again i think i deserve it... I duuno what it is with me.. do i just not get things .. am i so bloddy dumb... and still haven't grown up..

Yes someone did tell me that i need to grow up.. and yes someday i will.. i am sure of that.. but the day all the innocense in me will vanish .. the person who told me to grow up would probably see a different me..

I duuno what to do.. i just feel like leaving everything and going away for a few days with no one to talk to.. no phone calls... no worries about being first with the news.. no nothing.. JUST AIMLESS.. n probably that should not be the right attitude at this age... but yaa.. i can feel the drain now..

And now my minds not working.. i can't write anymore because the framing of sentences is taking a long time... so im off... and may be off for a few days from blogging... Will be all fine when i am back... and i am sure on that..

Love
Taa...

PICTURE PERFECT..

Oh the weather in Bombay is just so beautiful and it is worth every reason for me being born in this city.. Thanks mon n dad.. ;-)

It has been raining non-stop since 24 hours.. and probably the first time i have seen it rain like this in November.. n the only song that i can think currently is November Rain and for some reason i am goin on on humming bubbly face..

The view outside my office window is just so picture perfect that it would probably stay in mind till the next season.. I just feel like getting out of this office and going on the longest walk on marine drive.. n letting the small droplets just fall on my face.. and enjoy every moment of this weather..

Had it not been for my sudden change in attitude towards life.. i would have probbaly taken the day off.. or come in late to office and have enjoyed the early morning weather.. but i am in such a mood to work nowdays that my boss woke me at 7:15 and asked me if i could reach office by 8:15.. n yes i beat him to that and reached office at 8:00..

The best thing to do in this weather is to sit by some window that overlooks the sea... have some lovely coffee.. listen to lovely music.. i oculd be like that for hours together..

I am just imagining this whole scene and its making me happy.. and probably fulfilling my wish of doing all this also...

I wish Iti was here.. then i would have definately done some part of this.. becasuse i know how crazy the two of us are... we would have def done this.. Love u.. muaahh...

ENJOY THIS WEATHER...

Happiness all depends on you..

I know i have not blogged since a long time.. it may be becasue i was too busy with a lot of things or i just didn't feel like blogging..

So, now my life is going great as it has been going that way since a really long time and touchwood for that..

Or may be its the change in attitude that i have taken on me now.. JUST LET IT BE.. don't think too much over something or somebody..

I think everything that happens.. happens for a reason.. So, yes i am happy.. for every small thing that has happened to me since the last few days.. weeks.. months.. years.. or may be since the time i landed on this earth..

I sit back thinking and then realise that i am so lucky than many other people in this world.. atleast every part of body is functional.. i have a gr8 family.. superb friends.. a good job as of now.. and what else do i need.. everything is in place.. ya may be i don't have a special someone to share it with..

But i think that's also fine.. i can't be that demanding in life too.. and if i have to get that someone special .. i will get it sometime .. somewhere.. but for now just LIVE..

And to my family and all my lovely friends... i love ull a lot.. n it's because of ul that im still flaunting my smile everyday..

Love